
About 2 weeks away from my second Boston anniversary and what a ride it has been. It was a sad day today as I visited for the last time, one of the best gals I've met since moving here. I did my best to hold back the tears and refused to say goodbye since we will keep in touch. This photo taken this evening as I walked to say my "see you soon". When I first moved to Boston, almost 2 years ago, I lived on the other end of the Fens. I remember my first time visiting and being warned by my friend's dad to stay away from the Fens, especially the reedy area, at night. Not sure how well you can see the reeds, but they are there in the photo.
Walking around the city on Boylston tonight reminded me of my first month in Boston. Not knowing anyone, not having a job, not sure what I wanted or how long I'd be here, but for once I was living life. Now, I know quite a few people, I have a job, but I'm still not sure what I want or how long I'll be here and I'm not really living life like I used to. My first year here was figuring things out. Jobs, boys, friends, etc. This past year I've been focusing on doing stuff and experiencing more Boston firsts. I think year 3 will be focusing on living here. Something I haven't really come to terms with. Many in my inner circle know that I don't really feel like I live here. Yes, I have an apartment filled with stuff, but it doesn't feel like I'm settled and at any moment; I could leave if I wanted to. I still say I'm from California, but this year I've felt like more of a Bostonian Transplant than ever before, slowly changing favorite teams (Lakers out, Celtics in) and becoming a fan of a new team (Bruins). I've always tried to be different and go against the current, and still fight Boston ways. I will never accept the liquor laws, understand how an "r" can make an "h" sound or why the light switches are placed outside the bathroom instead of inside, but I do live here, pay state taxes here and have a job here, so maybe it's about the time that I start acting like I live here. All this reflection from looking across at the Fens tonight, bringing me back to when I first moved to Boston.