Game Night = Girls Night In

Tonight was Game Night with a twist. We tried to do a Harvest/Halloween theme... and did well with food, but not so good when it game to the games. I cooked butternut squash risotto from scratch and homemade biscuits; we had Halloween candy in a black cauldron; one of the gals made pumpkin chili and we finished up with with a yummy pumpkin cake. Wine, apple cider, hard cider, more wine...needless to say, we pretty much spent the night talking and eating. We did break out Pictionary, but only to view pictures drawn in games past. So game night didn't happen... we just talked a lot about boys and dating, grammar (of all things), the south, California, work, alcohol... to sum it up, it was another great night with my single girlfriends eating, drinking and chatting. I am so thankful for being able to host gatherings and have such a great group of friends who love me for me regardless of my flaws. Those are true friends, and friends I will forever cherish. Back to the risotto. I have never made risotto, but thanks to Rachel Ray (ugh, I really can't stand her but her recipe was easy) and the Trader Joe's wine boy who recommended this Sauvignon Blanc for cooking...it was a success. And my biscuits, I must say, though slightly still gooey inside, were the best I've ever made...I <3 cooking/baking! I have plenty of leftovers, which is nice b/c I haven't cooked anything in over a week.

In other news, after talking to my BFF and my boy/Boston troubles, she pointed out that if I were to move back to Cali, I would not be as happy b/c I would not have as active of a social life. Good point! Also pointed out that I may be feeling the way I feel b/c it has been WAY TOO LONG since I've last traveled to someplace new. So, a foreign trip somewhere or a trip to Alaska to complete my 50 state tour might just be what the soon to be Dr. Felker ordered :) I love my dearest friends who can tell me shit straight up and make me see things clearly, and for always making me feel better about things. Without you, I don't know where I'd be. Much love!

Craft night with the girls

I feel the need to be around all my single girlfriends right now and tonight was just what the doctor ordered. We ordered pizza and ended up getting locked out of the apartment. Thankfully it was a gorgeous night out, there was a beautiful sunset and not too cold. We ate our pizza out on the stoop (totally felt like a city girl tonight) then ended up walking up Boylston and through the hotel and mall and ended up in the Back Bay where we met my friends roommate coming out of the gym. I must say, the walk was really nice and I trekked through parts of Boston I've never explored. We walked back to their apartment, where we had some water and washed down our pizza we had an hour before with some beer. We then started the crafts. I made my rat ears and tail for my Halloween costume, which look like mice ears, but to be honest, rats are like fatter and bigger mice anyway, right? It was nice being surrounded by women in the same boat as me when it comes to stupid boys. I pushed all of the boy shit out of my mind tonight and just had a good night walking around and hanging out with the girls. Being locked out also left me cell phone free for over an hour, and I have admit, it was weird not having my phone or ID on me, but I survived and didn't go nuts! It was nice being back in the Fenway area, there are times I miss living on Park Drive and to be honest, I'm beginning to miss San Diego, ever so slightly. I'm beginning to wonder what I'm doing here, wondering what the point was to move to Boston with no job or friends and start a life here (the job is what is keeping me here I think). I've figured out why I go for the "bad" boys who always break my heart instead of the "good" ones...and there's not a damn think I can do about that. So, to save my heart from being broken yet again and crying myself to sleep or tearing up during work when chatting to my BBFF regarding boys...I've decided that I'm done with boys (good and bad) for awhile. It's just me and my single girls until I feel safe enough to let another guy get close to me and to see the real me.

Why I'm drinking a bottle of wine by myself tonight...

Woke up this morning and snoozed through Yoga.

Walked out the door and the street was empty.

Sliced my finger with a one inch long paper cut.

My head boss fell and broke his kneecap today, needing surgery (from walking and reading and falling- sound familiar?)

Waited for the C line for over 30 minutes. Watched 1 go pass us without stopping.

Decided to walk and caught the 3rd T that went by.

Bought 3 bottles of wine at Trader Joe's (but was charged for 4)

Waited for the C line...again.

Got home at 7pm, starving, so didn't get to go shopping for Thursday's Themed Game Night, like I wanted to.

Poured myself a glass, after glass, after glass...as I eat my pasta roni, talk to my BFF and watch Dexter.

So yes, tonight I am drinking an entire bottle of red wine (yes, red... not white, I actually found a red I really like!). Days like this I wish I had someone to drink with, lol. Looking forward to tomorrow...maybe I'll drink so much, I'll call in sick.

Changes

I've been thinking a lot about the future. I find myself wondering what my life would be if I were pregnant and how much my life would change. Not that I want to be a single mom by any means, but I am thinking about babies. I also have been thinking whether I want to continue being single or really work for a relationship. I tend to flirt and enjoy being around guys who are safe, who wont hurt me and yet I always date the ones who use and abuse me. Now I am beginning to question what I really want from a guy. Do I take a chance and pursue someone I feel safe with and enjoy the time I spend with them? Or do I wait...and wait...and wait for some guy to befriend me and prove he won't hurt me? Or do I take no action at all and just wait and see which guy(s) make the move? Wish I had the answer, but for now I change my hair as a sign I'm ready for change.

Girls go through these phases, changing their look (even if slightly) when they go through a breakup, move across the country, quit a job, etc. I'm not really going through any of the typical reasons I would change my hair, but just felt like I needed to do something to change it up. I decided to straighten my hair and am thinking that maybe, just maybe, the Millionaire Matchmaker was right... guys don't like curly hair girls as much as they do straight hair girls. I've already noticed a difference in the way guys look at me. But I have to remember, it may give me more confidence, it does not, however, change the core of who I am. So yes, my hair is long and straight (I think maybe I'll cut it short come New Year's) but for now, I'm wearing it straight (until my afternoon spin classes when it will curl right up) but hey, the guys I'm interested in are always the skinny with zero body fat...basically the guys that don't hit the gym. I do have to admit, it is nice running my fingers through my silky smooth hair without them getting stuck or pulling out hair.

Wii and Dexter and Beer. Oh My!

Well, I finally broke down and bought a Wii today. What a hassle that was today thanks to Target's credit card and bus transportation, but hey, mission complete. Now, come snow, I wont have a reason to leave the apartment. I feel like I wasted the day though. Slept in until 11:30am and watched some Dexter before my 3 hour Target trip. Then, as I was walking to meet a friend to go try some beer flights, I noticed a car parked in my parking spot. So I left a note saying "you are parking in this spot without my permission. If you park here again, I will tow the car, as I rent this spot out". I am kind of pissed that someone feels they can park in my spot (a spot I could get $150-$200 a month for) without even asking me. This made me quite mad, and yes, I could have towed the car right then and there, but felt like I should leave a note first to give them the benefit of the doubt, but seriously? Do they think they can just park anywhere in Brookline for free? Really?? Grr... any way. Beer flights! My friend down the street and I took the T to Allston to this amazing place that has 112 beers on tap. We tried 4 different beers in 5oz servings. They were out of a few pumpkin ones, which was the reason for going today. But I did get to try the Sam's Pumpkin Harvest beer and had an amazing cup of onion soup and sweet potato fries. Their beer menu is so large; I know I will be coming back frequently this winter. Afterwards, we had to stop and buy some beer at this gigantic liquor store... walked out with Sam's Harvest variety case and some Shipyard Pumpkinhead which we split. Now, some more Dexter before getting ready for another busy week.

Pre-gaming before round 3.

Well tonight was fun, I got all dolled up (which basically means I took an hour to straighten my hair- something I haven't done since last winter) and everyone complimented on it. I turned on my iTunes and danced to my hip hop and R&B music while getting ready, even fixed myself an apple martini to get the night going before going over to my least favorite part of Boston "the shit hole" as I've heard it referred to (and couldn't agree more)...I'm talking about Central Square. Went to T.T. the Bear (my first time going there) and played pool. I didn't have to dance and thank goodness bc it was old-school goth night and that's not my crowd. It was fun seeing birthday boy's crew. Caught the bus which only took 4 minutes to get to Brookline, which was awesome! And cutie bus driver from my Friday night trips to the gym was my driver :) A good night overall, had more fun than I thought I would. Someone asked me recently what I miss most about not being in a relationship. At the time, I couldn't answer, but tonight I realized (besides the obvious physical stuff) I miss having a reason to get all dolled up before going out on the town. Maybe I might get more head turns if I continue taking my time to get ready...cuz it was fun tonight.

Karaoke

Photo of the night= duet of the night... nice job boys :)

I want to thank everyone for reading my blog, I had no idea just how many people read it and are drawn into my life. I am sorry you woke up without having a new blog to read this morning, I didn't post yesterday's blog last night b/c I was way too tired. So, here you go weekend readers, a new entry, fresh as your morning cup of joe :)

Tonight was yet another October birthday party. I'm ready for this month to be over b/c there are so many birthdays that I'm totally burning out! I honestly don't know how I made it through the day at work, I was hung over and hurting, but had to run the office (and did a good job doing so, according to the chief of staff). I decided it was in my best interest to not got to Zumba tonight and instead took a nap before going out tonight. I'm not a napper, but was so tired I had no problem falling asleep. Getting up was another story though. It was hard to get out of bed and into the 45° wet weather. But I did it. I put on my new jeans (which I have to admit were bought at Costco- my first clothing purchase at my favorite store), some boots and a sweater and trekked to JP with a few friends tonight to meet the group of 40+ people at the Jeanie in Jamaica Plain for karaoke. Karaoke, something I've only done in Italy when my friend Marc and I did the Grease Medley. So tonight, with a few friends I got up and made my US debut singing "Mamma Mia". I was supposed to do "Summer Nights" as well, with one of my friends (who was a karaoke hog tonight btw) but I had to leave before being called up. I had a lot of fun, drinking my water (even the smell of beer made my stomach turn), talking and singing with my friends. Caught a ride home with friends who live in the neighborhood and am all ready to get my sleep on. This old lady is exhausted.