Changes

I've been thinking a lot about the future. I find myself wondering what my life would be if I were pregnant and how much my life would change. Not that I want to be a single mom by any means, but I am thinking about babies. I also have been thinking whether I want to continue being single or really work for a relationship. I tend to flirt and enjoy being around guys who are safe, who wont hurt me and yet I always date the ones who use and abuse me. Now I am beginning to question what I really want from a guy. Do I take a chance and pursue someone I feel safe with and enjoy the time I spend with them? Or do I wait...and wait...and wait for some guy to befriend me and prove he won't hurt me? Or do I take no action at all and just wait and see which guy(s) make the move? Wish I had the answer, but for now I change my hair as a sign I'm ready for change.

Girls go through these phases, changing their look (even if slightly) when they go through a breakup, move across the country, quit a job, etc. I'm not really going through any of the typical reasons I would change my hair, but just felt like I needed to do something to change it up. I decided to straighten my hair and am thinking that maybe, just maybe, the Millionaire Matchmaker was right... guys don't like curly hair girls as much as they do straight hair girls. I've already noticed a difference in the way guys look at me. But I have to remember, it may give me more confidence, it does not, however, change the core of who I am. So yes, my hair is long and straight (I think maybe I'll cut it short come New Year's) but for now, I'm wearing it straight (until my afternoon spin classes when it will curl right up) but hey, the guys I'm interested in are always the skinny with zero body fat...basically the guys that don't hit the gym. I do have to admit, it is nice running my fingers through my silky smooth hair without them getting stuck or pulling out hair.