Time Freezes

Well, another R&R day. I hate this whole time change, b/c I never gain an hour. I watched my phone time freeze at 1:04am for an hour. I was wide awake, even watched "Confessions of a Shopaholic" which ended at the new time 3am (but body time 4am). So I slept until what would have been 1pm today. Coughing and anxiety kept me awake. What was making me anxious you asked? I'm wondering if the pain in my breast is cancer that the doctors missed b/c they refused to do another ultra sound. I 'm thinking that someone is going to break into my apartment while I'm in bed. I worry about my brother-in-law in Afghanistan and my sister with the two kids and another one on the way. I'm worried that this cold that I've had for 3 weeks now is something else and that traveling for a week will only make me worse. I wonder what I'm going to get the family for Christmas and whether I should try getting a roommate or if I should move. I think about Erick in Denver, wondering if the flights will lower or if I should just go ahead and buy the tickets now. I'm afraid I'm going to lose my job. I worry that I have missed some credit card payment and ruin my credit. I think about why my apartment is slanted, so nothing is flat and leveled and why the floor makes this water tapping/dripping sound in my bedroom which annoys the hell out of me. Then I think about all the stuff I've accumulated here and what it would cost me to move it all. I fear coming home in a week and a half to an apartment that has been burglarized. I think of past relationships which make me angry, which increase my heart rate and therefore makes it impossible to fall asleep until I can calm myself down, which I do by thinking of Denver. But not until I think again about who I bought my mattress from and if there will ever come a time when I can lay on it and not think about that. Then I think of friendships, the ones I've made, the ones I've lost and the ones I never considered. Then I think of if I'm really happy where I am in life and wonder if I should be somewhere else, doing something different. Then, because I'm reading "The Help" wonder if the half baths or guest water closets stemmed from the whole separate but equal times with the help having to use a separate bathroom (and since an average family didn't have live-in help, there was no need for a shower, hence the half baths). But after a while, I decide it's been 4 hours since I took some cough medicine, so I could take some NyQuil to help me fall asleep. Now I just hope I didn't mess up my sleeping hours for tonight by staying in all day long, watching movies without getting dressed for the second day in the row, having not stepped outside since Friday. Oh, how I wish I could have benefited from the extra hour we gained last night or not eve have to deal with changing out clocks.