Glass Half Empty

There are two types of people in the world. The glass half empty and the glass half full type, and I am the former. Granted, I am not nearly as bad as I used to be, but I still have my moments. I've been dubbed "Negative Nancy", accused of kvetching, and I always expect the worst and hope for the best b/c it helps me stay grounded and not feel so rejected if things don't work out as I like. I definitely go through cycles where if I am extremely bored, alone, and just can't decide things I become super negative. I feel like that's where I am at right now. I am bored and work and tell myself I can be doing so much stuff at home instead of sitting at my desk wasting away doing nothing. Living by myself is hard b/c I love being around people and doing things (sitting around doing nothing drives me nuts) so when I am bored and everyone else has work to do, I start thinking about all this stuff I could be doing. Then there's decisions. I have so much I want to do and yet have a hard time deciding when, where and how I'm going to do it. I'm definitely getting antsy and keep thinking how nice it would be to just up and go someplace for a week or so, remembering what it used to be like when I lived out of a suitcase travelling all the time. I feel like a dam ready to burst after a rainy season. I thought moving someplace new would keep me from feeling these things, but no. I feel like I'm in the same place I was before my epiphany in San Diego. I feel half empty, longing for the full feeling where I have no complaints and feel like I'm actually doing something with my life.

Now, the reason I picked this photo (besides proving I'm not brand bias- as this is my Sam Adams glass and I have Coors Light in it) is because I can NEVER finish a can/bottle of beer at home. I try and I always end up wasting about half whenever I'm drinking along at home. I swear, they need to start thinking about smaller cans like Coke did b/c I'm tired of pouring my half empty glass of beer down the drain.